Bants.

You know when they say.. "Life is not a bed of roses" , thing is life isn't even a bed. There's no allowance in life for you to relax in peace. Its either you're standing or you're on the ground being stepped on by those who have fought or who are fighting to be in that upright position. Life, it waits for no one, And no one waits for another. Its like a relay race around the universe... to infinity. If your baton drops, your opponent keeps going... its either you sit and wait for help or you pick it up and try to cover the distance lost. Love, many say it has no finite definition. I would rather not say I know anything about it. But I can say that love can be sweet and beautiful, from what people say. It also can be mean, cruel... If you love someone who loves someone else... It doesn't get worse. Does it? Hope, the expectation for a better tomorrow. When you need something so much you'd rather wait ages for it to come your way than let it go. And then, belief that the one who has your heart would find their way back to you. When you fall hard and that someone leaves, the gaping hole in your heart is inevitable. Sometimes it stays there long enough that you start to believe your torn pieces can never be one again. Other times you're lucky enough to find another who would fill that void. But at last, we all end up Fine. I'll keep moving, I'll try to get it off my mind. Regardless, I hope I haven't lost him... totally.

Versatile blogger award

Yaaaayh me! I was just told i received a versatile blogger nomination! was momentarily surprised though *blushing*. Thank you Cee http://madamchiso.blogspot.com/ for the nomination :D


Apparently, there are rules that come with the award which i have to adhere to
 1. Nominate 15 fellow bloggers.
 2. Inform the bloggers of their nomination.
 3. Share 7 random things about yourself.
 4. Thank the blogger who nominated you.
 5. Add the Versatile Blogger Award pic on your blog post.


Nominees: i'm not consistent here on blogger, so i dont know if i would be able to list 15, but i'll try still

1. http://undercover07.blogspot.com/
2. http://alteredtoredefine.blogspot.com/
3. http://madamchiso.blogspot.com/
4. http://beingdipjyoti.blogspot.com/
5. http://kitkatstales.wordpress.com
6. http://raspeberry.blogspot.com/
7. http://roseofsharonwrites.blogspot.com/
8. http://lovestolosecontrol.blogspot.com
9. http://eche-crates.blogspot.com/
10. http://idletuesdayafternoonthoughts.blogspot.com/
11. http://toblog-withlove.blogspot.com
12. http://itsthethingsinlife.blogspot.com/
13. http://gottahavefai.blogspot.com/
14. http://cerebrallybusy.blogspot.com/
15. http://yinkuslolo.blogspot.com/

Seven random things about myself:

1. i love sleeping... waay too much 
2. i like wearing black, no need to stress myself trying to combine colors
3. i hate beans
4. i once scaled the school fence with my best friend. i liked it :D
5. I've never traveled out of my country
6. i have NEVER dated a guy shorter than me, Never would :|
7. i'm not really a music person, so when i  actually listen, any genre is fine by me.

just the need to let a little out..

i wish to say hello, but i'm in no mood for pleasantries.

I'm one to do things i know i would look back at and not be proud, but i still end up doing them. i hate to regret, hate to say "i wish i hadn't", hate to feel sober for something that has already been done.. i dislike where i am right now, for some reason i feel like i'm pushing away someone who loves me, but love? *scoffs* My mentality that it doesn't exist is probably what is keeping me from feeling or experiencing it, but really i dont care. On matters of the heart, i want to be left alone,not to be disturbed, yet sometimes i feel a certain emptiness and the need to be loved. i lyk my feelings to stay hidden, and at the same time i wish one could look deep and see what i feel, i dont want to speak, or have to blurt out all that is on my mind.. i just want him to see what is in my head without me saying a word.. i'm just a really confused person..
right? yh, i know.